Who Knew?!

I feel like this is turning into a bitching blog, so I would like to apologize to my readers. I did not intend for my blog to be this way, it has just turned out like that. Here goes.

I never knew there would come a day in my life where I would hope and pray that I would ovulate. Seriously, it's to a point where I don't care if I get pregnant or not, I just want my body to function as it should. If I can ovulate it will make me feel like someday we will be able to get pregnant and that really is enough for me right now, but if I don't that means something else is wrong and I will probably end up having to take some sort of fertility drug to be able to do so. It seems almost ridiculous that I am so concerned with it, but I am. No one tells you about this part of life. You just go through it and experience it. I feel like most people have this idea that when you and your husband decide to start a family you get it on and bing bang boom you get your BFP. For some of us, it is like that, for others this is a sad and cruel joke. I don't really know the point of this post except to release the frustration that is building up in my little TTC world. It is what it is, I have however decided with suggestions from Kim and Melinda to get PCOS testing during my cycle day 3 next cycle to see if my hormones are in check. We will see what happens. Right now I am on cycle day 26...I guess we'll see how long this cycle goes. CD 50 should be on Oct. 9th and that is when I have been instructed to contact my OB if nothing "happens". Man this is so frustrating. It has been 7 months since my loss. Can a girl get a break please?


See, even Zoomie thinks so!