Two Pink Lines!!!

Two pink lines. Yes you are looking at a positive pregnancy test taken at 14 days past ovulation (I got a very faint line 4-6-10, but this one was prettier). Apparently that strong ovulation last month was a very good thing. I AM PREGNANT! Edgar and I are so happy, but hesitant to announce to the world that we are expecting again because of our loss last year. (So if you are a facebook friend please keep hush hush about this).

I tell myself daily, "Today I am pregnant and I love my baby".

Some days I am in disbelief. Other days I hardly feel pregnant at all and some days I feel over-stricken with grief and worry. I hope all is well with our growing little bean and that he/she is progressing as they should.

I don't have my first ultrasound until May 17th, so until then I am hoping and praying and telling my little bean to grow and grow and grow! Until then however, I am afraid I am seriously going to be a hot mess.

According to Fertilityfriend.com my due date will be 12-16-10. I would LOVE a December baby.

Dear Baby Bean,

Please stick. Mommy and daddy desperately want to meet you in 8-9 months. Please, please, pretty please.

Neglected!

Oh my, well this is embarrassing. I have seriously been neglecting this blog...man I suck! Hahaha. Oh well, here are the latest updates.

Work has been and is going to continue to be, crazy sauce. The students are about to start Spring quarter on Monday. It's going to be super busy, but it's cool. Work is what it is, and at this time I am happy to simply have the position that I have, so you know what? I'm not going to complain. I can only be thankful to have job security and to continuously be bringing home a check.
Hmm. So what's new with me? Well my husband and I are still TTC. I got off birth control pills in January and was waiting to see what my cycles would do (just to refresh your memory I had stopped ovulating all together last year so my OB put me on the pill for three months in hopes that it would regulate my cycles)...but I had one cycle where it looked like my body tried to ovulate and then didn't...and I started spotting. Whatev. The good news is once I started the new cycle...(TMI alert here) there were a few days where I started to notice a lot more egg-white cervical mucus so I started using ovulation predictor kits (OPKS) and sure enough yesterday and the day before I got this:


If you've never used an OPK let me explain. Anytime your test line (left) is the same color or darker than the control line (right) you are having a surge in your LH hormone which is responsible for ovulation. So here, this is obviously positive and the most positive I have had since like May of last year right before I stopped ovulating. To make things even better I got this positive yesterday on CD 16 (cycle day). This is the earliest ovulation I have had EVER. Yes, EVER. This for me, is a huge feat. This gives me hope that my cycles might actually start to become normal. I have tried really hard not to stress at work or at home. I have started doing fertility yoga which helps me concentrate on my breathing, relax and let go of the stresses of the day. If we are unsuccessful in a pregnancy this month, I think I will be okay, because I will be focusing on the fact that my body actually ovulated and this makes me so hopeful.

Well I suppose that's it for now. Hopefully in two weeks we will have news. Be it good or bad, it will be progress.

So, I leave you with a quote:
"Faith is not simply a patience that passively suffers until the storm is past. Rather, it is a spirit that bears things - with resignations, yes, but above all, with blazing, serene hope." -Corazon Aquino

DONE! WOOHOO!

Well well well. Lookie here. Saturday was my last birth control pill. I can't believe I've been on those things for three friggin months. I hate them. I don't ever want to go back on them and I mean that dammit. So here's to hoping and praying that after my period is over I will ovulate on my own. Please, please, please universe, please let my cycle return.

Also, I had an ultrasound last week because I was having some abdominal pain throughout my cycles. I had an awesome time with the dildo cam (yeah right). I am hoping it's nothing, but my doctor wanted to take the precaution just to make sure everything was a-ok in there. I am supposed to hear from her this week. SO fingers crossed that all is well in my ute.

Hope everyone has a great week. I hope it goes by fast.

Bad Blogger

I haven't blogged in a really really long time. I know, I suck heehee. Well tons has happened in the past couple of months, I'm not going to write all about it here, it's too much to keep up with and too much to write. Here are some of the more recent updates:

Yesterday I started my final pack of birth control. That means I have one month on these horrid things...and then we will be TTC again in Feb/March. I am hoping for a St. Patty's Day BFP, but I won't hold my breadth about it. I just bought a TON and I do mean a TON of OPKS (ovulation predictor kits) on ebay so I hope I just jinxed myself and I won't need to use all of them.

My hubs is working at a new location and it is part-time, but we are happy about this because he and two other guys are trying to start up their own company and this will allow him to do that. This is something my husband has wanted to for A LOOOONG time. Here is their website: Black Element Media. Please check it out and you can also become a fan on Facebook.

So far, it's starting out to be a good year and I am really looking forward to finding out what it has in store for us. This year, I turn 29 on June 29th which has to mean something good right? Hahahaa.

That's all folks. I will try and be a better blogger this year, I promise!!